Part 8
Just when you got used to the huge bum called baby belly that?s kicking you, making you uncomfortable and fat, you have to say goodbye to it.
A pregnancy passes by so very fast. It?s over before you can say Pregnancy. And that makes you nervous. From this time on you realize that the serious part only starts. You begin to realize how my responsibility this all is. Raising a child.
When my water breaks I try my best not to panic. I even try to breathe just the way I learned it in the course for pregnant women. And to be honest, that doesn?t help at all, it won?t make you all chilled and relaxed and take away the panic rising in you. No, no.
Totally in panic I run (if you can call it running ? more like walking with a stick in your butt) over to the living room where my boyfriend was watching TV and yell; ?The baby is coming!!?
I imagined that moment so many times and those imaginations were just completely different from the reality. I imagined that he?s going to jump up, collect my bags I?ve prepared for hospital and get me there as fast as he could. But nah-hah!
The reality was: ?Really? Great! I?ll be with you in a minute,? he said got up, went to the bathroom and wouldn?t come out for a little while.
I didn?t want to wait anymore and went to the bathroom to check if he?s still there. He was. And he was shaving. All relaxed and easy, just the opposite of me. I couldn?t believe it.
?Hey! Which part of ?the baby is coming!? didn?t you get? Hurry up!?
He finished, left the bathroom and then we finally drove to hospital. I have no idea how he can be so relaxed. Maybe it was all pretending. Or he took some drugs. I didn?t even want to know. All I knew was, I was so nervous, excited and scared. And I had the feeling as if I had an important appointment and I was being late. As if I?d miss something.
And getting to hospital took us way too long for my taste. I?d probably hit the gas pedal through the car floor. But my boyfriend was the tranquility himself. I think I?ve never seen him so relaxed. I didn?t know whether to be angry and disappointed or to be glad about it. Because maybe if he?d be as nervous as I am I?d get more nervous and flip out. But his calmness also made me mad and if I could I?d kick him out of the car, jump into the driver?s seat and race to the hospital in maybe 2 seconds ? when it took him several minutes to get there.
